Tuesday, February 22, 2011

In Loving Memory of UberVamp

It all started with an email from kiTT at Tongue Twied with the subject line "Brace yourself." I never expected to open it and find out that someone in our fandom had passed away, someone so many of us had connected with.

Many of you have asked what happened exactly. From tweets her cousin sent about her accident to confirmation from an email forwarded to another blogger, I know that she fell down some stairs and had a concussion and a broken leg. While in the hospital for observation, she suffered a cerebral hemorrhage. She was only 23, the same age as my kids, which is another reason it has hit me so hard. I look at my kids and all their hopes and dreams for the future, hopes and dreams I want to watch them achieve. As a mother, there could be nothing worse than losing a child. My heart breaks for Aini's mother and what she must be going through.

My first memory of UV is in the comments on TwiBite. From there, one thing led to another, and we were exchanging emails, tweets, and tumblr posts.

The first email I got from her came from an address I didn't recognize. This is what she typed at the bottom: Please excuse my gmail username. I opened this acct. when I was in my anime freak mode. I still am but my Robsession is stronger :)

Those of us who "knew" her know that statement to be true. Her Robsession was very strong, but she wasn't selfish. She loved sharing it with us. She cared enough to remember which Rob versions were our favorites.

She sent me Beanie Rob pics and pics of Rob with a guitar. When she discovered that I had a little thing for Jacksper and Robward, she was hooking me up with gifs, manips, and links to tumblr accounts she thought I would like.

She was embraced by Bleriana and the girls at The Cold Shower...the same group that gave me an honorary #VPP membership despite my old age ;) Following and/or participating in their twitter convos always made me smile.

As I read each heartfelt post, tweet, and email paying tribute to her, I am once again reminded of how proud I am to be a part of this fandom. If anything, this tragedy has brought us closer together,

Borrowed from Kelly at mydiscomROBulation:

“Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another,
'What! You too? I thought I was the only one”
C.S. Lewis (British Scholar and Novelist. 1898-1963)
Rob unites us all.

I invite you to visit other blogs who have left tributes. If I have missed any, please leave a link in the comments. I know there are more in the works, and I will try and update this list when they are posted.

You can also view a special thank you from Aini's cousin and all of Aini's beautiful tumblr posts here:

The iconic Biel just uploaded this video and dedicated it to Aini. It's full of Smiling/Adorkable Rob. Exactly what we need. She would have loved it.

Below is one of the avis I made for Bleriana's post. Feel free to grab it and use it on twitter like several of us are doing, or post it on your sidebar (thanks for the idea, kiTT).



Smitten said...

I hope UV knows just how much she is loved!

LustingAfterRob said...

I bet she is smiling down on us all. She has the best view of all now... Gazing upon Rob! The view must be nice from up there! ;)

Love and miss you, UV!


RoseArcadia said...

That was Beautiful, bb ((hugs))

RobzSinger said...

She was a sweet girl. Far too young.
Beautiful post, Lisa.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing your thoughts on her so beautifully.

We may never know the impact we have on those we meet in life, but hopefully now UV knows.

(blogger issues but this is me. Honest.)

Mrs. P said...

Beautiful tribute Lisa. I'm finally feeling better and ready to move forward...but I will admit it took longer than I expected considering I never met her in person. I guess it was also just horrible to lose someone so suddenly and needlessly that hit me the hardest.
UV would have been floored to know she was remembered and loved so much.

Stephanie said...

Beautiful bb, she would be so honored! We love you forever UV, forever our angel, forever in our hearts!!

Jen (P.E.'s Ho) said...

Sweet post, Lisa. I am so sad--we lost her too early, but I know that she is in a better place. It makes me realize that we need to cherish our friends--and tell them how we feel regularly. Life is but a moment, but at least we have each other--and I am so fortunate to share my life with all of you!

17foreverlisa said...

@Smitten - I hope so too. I really do.

@LustingafterRob - Oh the things she could tell us about Rob from her view. *le sigh*

@RoseArcadia and RobsZinger- Thanks. Everyone has done a great job celebrating her too short life. (((HUGS)))

@kiTT - I am glad that there has been the connection with her cousin. Hopefully, it brings them some comfort to know how much she was loved in the fandom.

@Mrs P - I know exactly what you mean. It really hit me because she's the same age as my kids, as you know. There is still so much they haven't done, so many dreams they haven't realized. I just can't imagine what her family is going through.

@Stephanie - Thanks bb. TCS Angel for sure.

@Jen (PEH) - "Life is but a moment, but at least we have each other--and I am so fortunate to share my life with all of you!" Ditto.

TwiloveSue said...

Lisa, this was such a lovely tribute to someone who touched so many lives.

Jaymes805 said...

Such a beautifully written tribute to someone who was so lovely and important to all of us.

And I just realized I wrote almost the same thing as Sue but I'm still going to leave it because it's true. I love all of you so much.. I'm so proud to be a part of an amazing group of individuals.

Kelly said...

Lisa... this was truly a beautiful tribute... and your words touched me.. all of the comments.. beautiful.. we don't all think about the impact we have on the others in the fandom that we basically communicate with daily.

I know I post because the emotion I feel for Rob just simply can't be contained... for me... but I love that people identify with what I write, or the videos I do.. or that they like the manips I create.. I love it just was much as when I read a post and say to my self.. she gets me... she and I share a brain... (right now I share my brain with so many of you that it's amazing that I can function :) )

Life gets complicated... things get scary... and yet.. no matter what... there is a place I can go... to feel like I am with friends.. who make me laugh, make me think, cry with me, advise me, assist me.. and are just there... and when those "I feel so alone" moments happen in my life... I can honestly say that it take less than a second for me to correct myself.. and remember... even sitting in my living room... without another soul in the room... I am never really alone.. and all I need is my smart phone or my lap top and someone will be there.. with a smile..

Aini knew this... I believe she felt the same way... and in a little way.. it helps me.. to know that she knew... that we all "get it". We understood.. we laughed with her.. and h00r'ed with her.. we giggled and sighed... so though she didn't know each of us personally.. she knew it was personal to us... as it was to her.. if that makes any sense...

And now I'm babblinbg.. so... I will close by saying thank you for posting those bits from my tribute post... you got it... you get it.. and I know it :)

XOXO to all who stop and read here.. I adore you all.. and thank you for being there for me :)

Aini.. rest in peace sweet angel... we will not forget..
spread your wings.... and in the words of the wonderful Ms. Bette Midler...
so high against the sky...
so high you can now touch the sky...
thank you... thank you.. thank God for you.. the wind beneath our wings...

rpfangirljr said...

It seems we are all reeling from her loss. It's just horrible and I want to scream about how unfair life is.

UV was a true sweetheart. She and I used to joke about reblogging each other on Tumblr and reTweeting on Twitter. My thoughts and prayers are with her and her family.

Beautiful post, Lisa!

TheonlyMrs(Kassie)Cullen said...

I love all the friends I have made because of this fandom and it is extremely that someone that was a part of this wonderful group has passed.

UberVamp will be missed. Marie and I also have also done a post for UV


17foreverlisa said...

@TwiloveSue - Thanks, Sue. (nice avi btw)

@Jaymes805 - I think we're all saying a lot of the same things. That's because we get each other :)

@Kelly - Kelly, Kelly, Kelly. You made me cry again. You always move me with your words. This ---> "so though she didn't know each of us personally.. she knew it was personal to us... as it was to her.." It makes perfect sense. XO

@rpfangirljr - She had a way of reaching out to all of us, didn't she? Too sweet.

@Kassie - Thank so much for providing the link to the post you and Marie did. I will check it out and encourage everyone else to do so. XO

17foreverlisa said...

I will try and add new tribute post links to the list as they come in. Kassie, I have added yours.

Kim said...

I didn't know her personally. Wish I had. RIP Anya.

Anonymous said...

Be ashamed of yourself Lisa!
You made me cry. Again.
Glad someone could formulate the words to say what we all feel. Thanks for that babes!


p.s. Old?! are you furealz? there's no age limit from 18 upwards for VPPs!

Trixie and Tess said...

This makes me so sad. I didn't know her personally, but I had seen her name around the blogosphere/Twitter world.

My heart goes out to her family and friends. I'm sure she will be deeply missed, but never forgotten.

UtterlyAbsurd Bella said...

Lisa, you always know the exact right thing to say. That post was perfect. UV will be really missed. I can't even imagine what her family must be going through.

{{{Hugs}}} to all.....

AllTwiedUp said...

This made me tear up, what a beautiful post. She is loved and I'm sure somehow, somewhere she knows that.

Anonymous said...

How tragic, too young. So heartbreaking for her loved ones. Love to all StackedLikeSookie (my google acct hates me). XX

belladuluk said...

Lisa and all those who've posted their tributes here, I'm in awe of each of you. I've said it before, I don't know a single one of you in "real life" I don't have my own blog, or know how to as I call it "tumble" don't tweet, and only have a FB account to check out ff authors...yet, you all welcome me anyway, make me feel like I'm part of your community, make me feel seen.
I did not know UV and didn't know until today that she was soooo young, I have an only son around that age and it staggers me to think how her mother is feeling right now...so sad.
I just needed you to know that what you girls all do, did, will do, will carry a piece of this mother's child in each of our hearts...

17foreverlisa said...

@Kim and Trixie and Tess - Thanks, girls. I really appreciate you stopping by and sharing this with me/us :)

@TCS/Bleriana - Sorry bb. I already told you I wish I could fly over there and wrap you up in a big hug. Of course, I'd need to bring my walker with me for support ;) I got the email alert for your final tribute post, and it's perfect. Mwah!

@UtterlyAbsurdBella/Marie - Thanks. I'm not sure about always saying the right thing, but it definitely came from the heart, as did your post. XO

@Anonymous/StackedLikeSookie - No love from Blogger? What's up with that? LOL! Thanks for stopping by. How are you?!

@belladuluk/Fran - Now I feel like Bleriana. You went and made me cry again. Shame on you! LOL! That was an absolutely lovely comment. So many of us "met" in the comments on blogs. I think I speak for most of us when I say we never expected the direction our lives would take after that. This really is a family. Please consider yourself a part of it. XXXOOO PS: You need to get a twitter account! It only took Bleriana, Jayla, and I about a year to convince kiTT to get one. And I would gladly help you set up a tumblr account if you want. It's the land of beautiful pictures. Easy and non-intrusive.

Chloe Cougar said...


I never knowingly had any contact with UV, but having read all of the recent tributes and just flicked to your blog, I now find myself in tears - again.

I couldn't even watch the first vid there (Halo) in it's entirety. So poignant.

Nobody should ever die that young. It just flouts the laws of nature. I don't know what my 'beliefs' are, but I know that somehow UV's tragic and untimely passing has reminded the Twi-community come together, once more, to comfort one another.

I am so honoured to be part of this community. And I do believe you've paid UV a very fitting tribute.

CC x

17foreverlisa said...

@Chloe Cougar - Thanks. I love how my circle has grown and that you have stepped inside of it :)

@Everyone - I have updated the list of tribute posts. Bleriana wrote a new one (2) and there are some great comments being shared. The ff author of Million Dollar Baby also contributed. Thanks for reading.

17foreverlisa said...

Just added Biel's newly uploaded video dedicated to Aini. Enjoy!

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